A lot can happen in ten years. And the last ten years flew by really quickly. Nothing revolutionary happened (although you did miss 9/11 by a few months) but life happened. I graduated high school, college, and went to work. I moved to Norcal. I discovered people who I could call my lifelong friends. I went through many personal discoveries about myself. I grew up. I met a guy. And so forth. By most accounts, I have a normal life that is sometimes exciting and sometimes not.
Even so, I still wish I could share it with you. I spent the last week thinking about how I wish you and I could meet right now. I thought about what it would be like to have dinner with you and have an adult conversation. You would share your business wisdom with me, I would update you on my life and ask for your advice. I’ve been told many wonderful things about how you were as a businessman and friend by countless of the church elders. I only knew you as my dad. Now that I’m an adult, I wish we could meet now. I wish I could see your character as an adult. I wish I could introduce you to my boyfriend. I think you guys would really get along.
I also think about how different my life might have been if you were around for the last ten years. How would you have influenced my life? Would I be where I am today if you were still here? Would I have made different choices, choices that were influenced by you? What would you think about the person I’ve become?
I have all these questions that I’ll probably ask you when I see you again in Heaven. Until then, I’ll always wonder, I’ll always think about you, and I’ll always hope that you are proud of how I turned out (or how I will still turn out).
06.09.01
